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A Blood Sacrifice That May Have Been Because Of Me

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 26, 2014, 2:29 PM
  Sometimes my art takes a turn for the spiritual because art is spiritual there's no secret there, everybody knows it. In October 2010 when my friend was killed, my mom had to have it where she had total control of me. In 2011 though, I woke up from my life as a sleeper cell and rebelled against my mom in every way possible. In 2013, I shaved all the platinum hair off of my head and let my hair grow in as it's natural black color and in March 2014 I heard the word MK Ultra for the very first time, ever. What I fear most was that Eileen was killed so that my mom could have another year of control over me and that the exoteric meaning of Three Cord Kamikaze is that it's about characters I made based on people I knew when I was in a punk band and the esoteric meaning was that it all came to me as predictive programing. I started 3CK as Keansburg Punk in August 2010.

Btw; Card Red Cross + Card Punk Rock = Jessie Pasternak Fox, Aka me, Aka 10

  • Mood: Horror
  • Reading: How Your Unconscious Mind Rules Your Behavior
Night Bridge by FallOutWoman
Night Bridge
Because today I was in a Japanese state of mind.
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  I will make myself the Avatar by unblocking all my chakras. When my energy is flowing in a balanced configuration, I will rise to a higher dimension.

 1) The first Chakra is the Root Chakra. It sits at the bottom of the spine. It is the Earth Chakra and it's color is red. It will become blocked by fear so to unblock it, I must conger up what I fear the most and then just let it float away.
       What I fear the most is Mind Control. Particularly that of the MK Ultra variety. Now let it go.

 2) The second chakra is located in the stomach. It is the Splenic Chakra. It honers the creative and it's color is orange. It becomes blocked
by guilt. So to unblock it I must conger up what I feel most guilty about and then let it go.
      When my mother with a mental illness ( Her bulimia is just the tip of the iceberg ) does some thing to royally piss me off, I then tell her that I just can't wait until she's dead and that she she should put a gun to her head and blow her brains out. Later I feel really guilty because I know that her disorder prevents her from controlling her behavior. Now let it go.

 3) The third chakra is located in the Solar Plexus. It honers the life force and It's color is yellow. It becomes blocked by shame. So to unblock it I must conger up what I am most ashamed of and then let it go.
    I am so very ashamed of my parent's behavior especially when they go super incoherent when ever the subject of me getting a job comes up. They have this "I'm too retarded to go to work" rule for me. The last time I broke it was in 2010 when I aced the Civil Service test and got a job as an enumerator for the U.S. Census. For this I was punished with ritual abuse. I am super ashamed of my mother's paranoia and my father's cowardice. Now let it go.

4) The fourth Chakra is the Heart Chakra. It is located in the heart and It's color is green. It is blocked by grief.  To unblock it I must conger up all my grief and then let it go
    I feel an unending amount of grief towards all of those people who I could have been really good friends with if only my mother with a mental illness hadn't chased them away from me. I am still morning the death of Eileen Ponger. I first met her when I was 10 years old and we immediately became friends. There were so many times that Eileen was the only friend I had. However, Eileen was killed in a fatal car crash 4 years ago.

5) The fifth chakra is in the throat. It is blue and it honers truthful communications. It becomes blocked by lies. To unblock it I must conjure up the biggest lie I am telling myself and then let it go.
 When I tell myself that I need another college degree in order to ensure my future and the only way to get that degree is to kiss up to my parents so they will pay my tuition, I am telling myself a big lie because I know that to ensure my future, I must run away from my parents and even sign a restraining order against my mother with a mental illness. The money that was supposed to go for my tuition would have been better spent if it went to buy a car and a house. Now let it go.

6) The sixth chakra is the Third Eye Chakra. It is located in the middle of the forehead. It is indigo and it honers all psychic activities. I feel most connected to this chakra because in sand script it is called the Anja, coincidentally the name of my alter is Anya. It becomes blocked by illusion. In order to unblock it I must conger the illusion that is most deceptive.
 The grand illusion is that those who are educated with many different university degrees are considered entitled to a more privileged life than those who are less educated with only a high school diploma or no diploma at all and are looked at as marginal and unstable. This is so wrong because in truth: Nobody is ever best once they believe in their own press. Maturing doesn't mean rehashing mistakes of the past. So eager to please, peer pressure decrees. Make the same old mistakes again and again. Chicken shit conformist like your parents.( Jello Biafra 1986)
In that regard capitalism sucks ass. Communism rules and America is a failed experiment. Let it go.

7) The last chakra is the Crown Chakra which sits on the very top of your head. It is purple and it honers connection with your higher power. It is blocked by earthly attachment. To unblock it I must conger up what I am attached to an let it go.
 My attachment is a chance to become famous. I really dread having to leave this life with out the fame. Now let it go

                              I have now become the avatar :D :D :D :D :D.
7 Chakra Work
This is how to open all 7 chakras to become a better version of myself. The concept was based off of The Last Airbender in the episode where Ang does the same process with different results.
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Bruiser In Mixed Media by FallOutWoman
Bruiser In Mixed Media
Portrat of one of my dogs. Made with charcoal, pastels and Prismacolor pencils. This was done on paper that's specifically made for pastels. I didn't like the
paper though because it's way too rough.
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Don't Become A Sheeple by FallOutWoman
Don't Become A Sheeple
Anti-illuminati conceptual piece because my biggest fear is that I'm being brainwashed with out me even knowing it. 
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A Blood Sacrifice That May Have Been Because Of Me

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 26, 2014, 2:29 PM
  Sometimes my art takes a turn for the spiritual because art is spiritual there's no secret there, everybody knows it. In October 2010 when my friend was killed, my mom had to have it where she had total control of me. In 2011 though, I woke up from my life as a sleeper cell and rebelled against my mom in every way possible. In 2013, I shaved all the platinum hair off of my head and let my hair grow in as it's natural black color and in March 2014 I heard the word MK Ultra for the very first time, ever. What I fear most was that Eileen was killed so that my mom could have another year of control over me and that the exoteric meaning of Three Cord Kamikaze is that it's about characters I made based on people I knew when I was in a punk band and the esoteric meaning was that it all came to me as predictive programing. I started 3CK as Keansburg Punk in August 2010.

Btw; Card Red Cross + Card Punk Rock = Jessie Pasternak Fox, Aka me, Aka 10

  • Mood: Horror
  • Reading: How Your Unconscious Mind Rules Your Behavior

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andreareno Featured By Owner Edited Nov 17, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Hi Jessie, thanks for comment and  favs. And thanks for watch, I appreciate this and  from now I am WATCHING YOU TOO:).
 Wishing all best.:)
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uki--uki Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014
:wave:
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FallOutWoman Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Student General Artist
 :D Do you like my pic?
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Scream-The-Panic Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you favoriting both my mathmatical keys drawing and Girl with Headphones Photoshoped picture. 
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Scream-The-Panic Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Student General Artist
Oh, and for the llama. Elise Toudou (Smile) [V1] 
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The-Dude-L-Bug Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks muchly Jessie for the :+devwatch:, the tsunami wave of :fav:s and the comments!
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shutter-light Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
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For joining we will have a great time:)

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Almerious Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks so very much for watching me, I appreciate it so very much! :iconsnugplz:
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LOST09 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014
Do you want to join Disney's World of War RP site? it's a war based rp my friend made.
disneyworldofwar.proboards.com…
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